Monthly Archives: February 2012

Down.

The other day while I was grocery shopping with Oliver, I thought I spotted a guy I used to work with. His name was Terry and he was awesome. When I went to work at Tri-Data he was the one who trained me and he was the one who I spent that whole first week with talking to and joking around with. We worked evening shift…4pm-midnight scanning in medical documents all day. It was a very easy job and I loved it because I could talk to people. We only had two other people working our evening shift. Jeremy was one of the other two and I met him during my second week because he was on a cruise. Terry was a very kind guy, with a little bit of roughness to him. He made us laugh and he was always giving people his stuff…his nice stuff for free. I tried getting Jeremy and Terry to quit smoking by bringing in toothpicks for them to chew on and gum as well. I cared about Jeremy and Terry even though, at the time, we were just co-workers. We spent 8 hours a day together working and once the other guy quit night shift, it was just Terry, Jeremy, and I.

Today I went to his Facebook profile because I realized it had been a while since I had seen anything from him. Since I thought I had spotted him at Wal-mart I thought I’d check in. The last time we messaged each other on Facebook he lived in Georgia. The very first comment was from his wife. She posted it yesterday and she said she missed him and loved him. I went on to read several other comments and I realized he had passed away. He died in late November from a heart attack at the age of 30. He was so full of life. He was a dad. It’s just really upset me all throughout the day. I’d call him Turrence because he had a strong country boy accent. I miss him even though I haven’t seen him in 3 years. It’s weird. Jeremy and I knew he had a heart condition because while he was training me I noticed his hands shaking and I mentioned it to him because I thought he was just drinking too much coffee. But he said he had had the heart condition for quite a while and he knew he wasn’t going to live into his 40s. I just never really thought about it. I don’t know if there is a heaven or not, but I hope there is. I hope he’ll get to see his son again and his wife.

I think one of the reasons why it bothers me so much is because Jeremy has mentioned before how he hopes he lives long enough for Ollie to remember him. It’s kind of morbid to talk about and I tell him to quit every time he brings it up. I’d like to think we’ll both die of old age and have lived a long life. I don’t want to think about leaving behind my son or something suddenly happening to Jeremy. I’ve been struggling with losing weight ever since I had Ollie and I know I’m overweight. I feel like this is a wake up call for Jeremy and I both. We need to get healthier and exercise and eat right so that Ollie will never have to worry about something like that happening to either of us. I’m sorry about this downer post, but I just felt like writing about it to see if it would make me feel better.

Happy Valentine’s Day!

I know this is a silly holiday, but I went ahead and planned something special for Jeremy. When he asked me what I wanted for Valentine’s Day I told him nothing. He’s seriously gotten me so much already and I wanted to make this day special for him. I didn’t spend a whole lot, but I don’t think you need to. I got him a movie on Blu-Ray, a box of chocolates, and I made him some pancakes this morning with a special message written with love =) I hope everyone else had a wonderful day today! My dad got all of us a gift card to Outback so he just asked that all of us could go at the same time. How sweet!

 

Why I love being a Mom.

I love being a mom because everyday I am forced to get out of bed and make the most out of the day.

I love being a mom because I love watching my son learn new things everyday.

I love being a mom because I watch my son’s kindness and the way he loves being affectionate with Jeremy and I.

I love being a mom because my son makes me laugh everyday.

I love being a mom because I can’t imagine life without him.

I love being a mom because my son teaches me patience and I learn something new about myself everyday.

Cruise.

We have a little bit over a month before Jeremy and I will be leaving for our cruise. It’s kind of killing me inside knowing we’ll be leaving Ollie for a week, but I know Jeremy and I could use the break. We love our little boy more than anything in this world. Jeremy works nonstop and goes to school, while I stay at home with Ollie 24/7. I’m very fortunate to be a stay-at-home mommy =) That being said, a week away where it’ll just be Jeremy and I sounds lovely. We’ll get to stay up as late as we want and sleep in. Maybe even have a few drinks! I know, it’s sad and I’m totally a parent now. But sleeping in and having a drink or two is a treat.

I just hope I’ll be okay with leaving Oliver for that long, on a boat where it costs lots of  $$$$$ to make a phone call home. I have to be strong and know that he is having a great time with his grandparents.

 

Playdates

This past week has been pretty crazy. I have had two sessions, which is awesome! I’ve been getting in practice and I’m actually loving the whole process. It’s a bit intense at times, but I really like editing the pictures after the sessions. I strained my neck the other night from editing all night and I’ve had this horrible stiff neck for the past few days. Ah! It’s starting to feel better now though, thank God!

Here are a few pictures form the week! Ollie found himself a little friend to play with =)

February Photo Challenge.

Day 3- Hands. My husband’s.

Day 2- Words. The wonderful Pablo Neruda. Currently obsessed with all things tree related…and poetry of course 😉

Feb photo challenge…

I saw this on tumblr and thought it would be fun to try… (Full list below picture)

Day 1- Your view today…

Day 1- View of your day.

Day 2- Words.

Day 3- Hands.

Day 4- A stranger.

Day 5- 10am.

Day 6- Dinner.

Day 7- Button.

Day 8- Sun.

Day 9- Front door.

Day 10-Self- Portrait.

Day 11- Makes you happy.

Day 12-Inside your closet.

Day 13- Blue.

Day 14- Heart.

Day 15- Phone.

Day 16- Something new.

Day 17- Time.

Day 18- Drink.

Day 19- Something you hate to do.

Day 20- Handwriting.

Day 21- A favorite photo of you.

Day 22- Where you work.

Day 23- Your shoes.

Day 24- Inside your bathroom cabinet.

Day 25- Green.

Day 26- Night.

Day 27- Something you ate.

Day 28- Money.

Day 29- Something you are listening to.